Happy Thanksgiving

We would like to wish everyone a very happy thinksgiving. I think I know why thanksgiving comes before Christmas....duh Jessica because that is when the pilgrims and the indians had it.....no not that...because it gives us a chance to be thankful for what we have before we go all materialistic at Christmas time. It is hard having a new house and being content with what we have instead of wanting new things for that house. I really want a bedroom set and Dave wants a diningroom table. We want plants to take the place of our rock garden, a wheel barrow to move the rocks away with, gutters around the house to catch the rain, and the house to be painted a color that I don't detest so I will be proud to take pictures of it. It's even harder being a new photographer and being content with what I have and not what new things I "need" like a speedlight/flash, beanbag chair, tripod, low appature lens, a camera purse, backdrops, props, etc. I have to stop and take a step back to realize how much I have to be thankful for. It's not about what I don't have, but what I do have. I have a husband who loves me along with a wonderful family, inlaws and all (even if I do want to kill them every now and then). I have a beautiful house that belongs to us. So many people have lost their homes, but instead God blessed us with the ability to get one. We both have jobs. They might not be the best jobs in the world, and they never seem to pay enough, but some people don't even have a job and don't know what they will do to keep the lights on. We have good health. We also have the hope of new life to continue our family. Some people want children so badly and are not able to have them. We know that we can, we just have to get the right timing. I am thankful for all that I have and I know I need to focus more on that than the what I have not. Happy Thasgiving all. May you eat till your stuffed, enjoy the company of friends and family, and have a small load of dishes to wash.

A weekend of escape from reality

Dave and I had a lovely weekend in Tallahassee. The weather was cool, we enjoyed a great football game, Melanie got to play at the dog park, we got to walk the trails at Tom Brown, we saw Dave's Great Uncle, and went to church. It feels like a lovely dream that I don't want to wake up from. We miss it so much up there, but we have committed to a life here in Clermont for now. I know that our life here will be great. We have a beautiful house which is coming together nicely and I'm sure before long we will have a family to fill it. The longer we are here the more friends we will make and the more like home it will be. I have to remember that Tallahassee wasn't home to us overnight. I know there are great things instore for us. We don't have to let go of the old to obtain the new, who knows maybe we will get to go back someday or maybe even go somewhere better.

Ocd

Apparently I am a bit ocd. I get in a "mood" to do things and then I don't stop till it's done. It's hard to force myself to do something when I'm not in the "mood" to do it. If I wake up and feel in the cleaning more then I clean till I run out of steam or out of stuff to clean (that was normally bothering me). If I start a puzzle then I have to keep working on it till I drop. It is very hard for me to walk away from it. I was the child who would read a Nancy Drew book from cover to cover in one night because I just couldn't put it down. I still do that with books. Once I get going on something and I don't feel like I am "done" then I can't stop until I get to the "done" point for me. Dave is the unfortunate recipient of alot of this. We start a small project and then I have made the project into something huge because I ran out of control with it or rushed to get it to the final done point. We worked on cleaning some of the garage to put up some work shelves because I couldn't wait for us to be able to afford for him to build a workbench like he wants to. So I made him buy some shelves to use for now so we can start getting the garage in order. Well he wasn't happy about that to start with. So as he was putting it together I started moving things around. I found out our ac was leaking (so it was a good thing at this point) so we had to move alot more things. Then since I was over there I started straightening my school stuff and going through some of it. Dave was done with cleaning by the time I found the leak let alone after when I asked him to put boxes up in the attic. I just get going on things and I can't stop. I just can't. I think this has been the problem with my thesis. I'm so anxty over it before I start that I can't make myself do it. Then when I get in the mood to do it I can rock it out and do awesome things, but it is had to get to that point. I was the girl in high school who would stay up all night writing her paper the night before it was due. I just couldn't make myself do it early. So I don't know what to do about this. Some of it is helpful some not, some o fit makes me pasionate, some of it makes me crazy. It also doesn't help that I am overly critical of myself and the things I do. If I can't do it well the first time then I don't want to do it. Most things come easy to me so its hard for me to actually work on something. I almost never rode a bike because I fell off it once and then procceded to tell my mother that the bike was broken. So yeah, I guess I need to find a way to slow things down (though getting a house has helped me to realize that not everything will get done at once), find a way to get in the "mood" or at least a smaller version of it so I can get the things done that I need to, and to not be overly critical of myself. That should be easy right?

up and running

I'm excited because I now have my/our new computer up and running. We had a few set backs due to helpful friends who helped too well, but we are good and going now. It runs so much faster than the other computer. I can edit photos at least twice as fast if not faster. Now I don't have to amuse myself while I am waiting for an action to run. Yay. Now if only I could find a few more hours in the day to get everything done.

left on my doorstep

I was happy at first when I noticed a package on my doorstep as I walked past the door on the way to the bedroom (I came in through the garage cause my husband has my keys and my car). Then I opened the door and saw that the package said computer case and the best computer deals anywhere anytime. I went from happy to pissed off. This was left at my front door! Unattended! They should have stuck a sign on it that said someone please steal me. Apparenlty my husband forgot to tell me our new computer was coming today. So I went from happy to pissed and eventually back to happy once I get it all up and running.

I am doing well now

Everything has been going well. I am back to normal...well if you could ever call me normal. We are free to start trying again soon so we will let you know. Please keep us in your prayers that when the time is right the next one will stick. Other than that, not much else to report. I hope everything is going well with all of you. If anyone is interested in having their picture taken let me know. I am trying to start up my photography business. Check out my blog for some of what I have done http://www.murariuphotography.blogspot.com/ or they are posted on my myspace if you have that too.

My husband is awesome

I love my husband. He has been so great through all of this. He just made me some warm chocolate. It's like hot chocolate only not so hot cause I always burn my tongue so instead it's only warm. He makes it on the stove with milk so it's verry yummy. I can't wait till it gets cold and then it will be even better.

Thanks to everyone for their love and support. We are taking things one day at a time. I go to the dr tomorrow. Hopefully they can tell us something about my health.