Ocd

Apparently I am a bit ocd. I get in a "mood" to do things and then I don't stop till it's done. It's hard to force myself to do something when I'm not in the "mood" to do it. If I wake up and feel in the cleaning more then I clean till I run out of steam or out of stuff to clean (that was normally bothering me). If I start a puzzle then I have to keep working on it till I drop. It is very hard for me to walk away from it. I was the child who would read a Nancy Drew book from cover to cover in one night because I just couldn't put it down. I still do that with books. Once I get going on something and I don't feel like I am "done" then I can't stop until I get to the "done" point for me. Dave is the unfortunate recipient of alot of this. We start a small project and then I have made the project into something huge because I ran out of control with it or rushed to get it to the final done point. We worked on cleaning some of the garage to put up some work shelves because I couldn't wait for us to be able to afford for him to build a workbench like he wants to. So I made him buy some shelves to use for now so we can start getting the garage in order. Well he wasn't happy about that to start with. So as he was putting it together I started moving things around. I found out our ac was leaking (so it was a good thing at this point) so we had to move alot more things. Then since I was over there I started straightening my school stuff and going through some of it. Dave was done with cleaning by the time I found the leak let alone after when I asked him to put boxes up in the attic. I just get going on things and I can't stop. I just can't. I think this has been the problem with my thesis. I'm so anxty over it before I start that I can't make myself do it. Then when I get in the mood to do it I can rock it out and do awesome things, but it is had to get to that point. I was the girl in high school who would stay up all night writing her paper the night before it was due. I just couldn't make myself do it early. So I don't know what to do about this. Some of it is helpful some not, some o fit makes me pasionate, some of it makes me crazy. It also doesn't help that I am overly critical of myself and the things I do. If I can't do it well the first time then I don't want to do it. Most things come easy to me so its hard for me to actually work on something. I almost never rode a bike because I fell off it once and then procceded to tell my mother that the bike was broken. So yeah, I guess I need to find a way to slow things down (though getting a house has helped me to realize that not everything will get done at once), find a way to get in the "mood" or at least a smaller version of it so I can get the things done that I need to, and to not be overly critical of myself. That should be easy right?

up and running

I'm excited because I now have my/our new computer up and running. We had a few set backs due to helpful friends who helped too well, but we are good and going now. It runs so much faster than the other computer. I can edit photos at least twice as fast if not faster. Now I don't have to amuse myself while I am waiting for an action to run. Yay. Now if only I could find a few more hours in the day to get everything done.

left on my doorstep

I was happy at first when I noticed a package on my doorstep as I walked past the door on the way to the bedroom (I came in through the garage cause my husband has my keys and my car). Then I opened the door and saw that the package said computer case and the best computer deals anywhere anytime. I went from happy to pissed off. This was left at my front door! Unattended! They should have stuck a sign on it that said someone please steal me. Apparenlty my husband forgot to tell me our new computer was coming today. So I went from happy to pissed and eventually back to happy once I get it all up and running.